big big world....

 
I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing
if you leave me
but I do do feel
that I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

I can see the first leaf falling
it's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing
if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes
why did it have to happen
why did it all have to end

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing
if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

I have your arms around me
ooooh like fire
but when I open my eyes
you're gone...

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing
if you leave me
but I do do feel
that I too too will
miss you much
miss you much...

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing
if you leave me
but I do feel I will
miss you much
miss you much...

* MNA....thnx 4 everything dear...i'll go away from ur life..... im gonna miss our moment together....forever....

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone

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hmmm.....its been a very difficult time 4 me...npe aq kne hadapi sume nih...perit sgt...hmmm....MNA...again..??? x ade bnde laen ke ko nk cite haa nana..balek2 MNA...tu laa tu...npe laa ngn aq nih...but dis time aq nk luah an pe yg aq rase for a few days ni.....kitorg ade text....sdeyh sgt2..he said that he got a girl...i knew who's that girl..her name is mimy...so sad..!! mcm nk gile aq rase...4 the 3 days aq flat..!!sume srbe x kne...then dye ade text gak..ckp cmni " awk tlg doa kan kbhgiaan sy ngn dye..tlg lindungi hub sy ngn dye..." ...YA Allah...gugur jantung mak nak..!!how dare he said that 2 me...dye wat aq cm x de perasaaan lgsg..n like usual im just sit back alone...b'pk...aq ni lmbut ati sgt ke pd dye..??aq just reply " sy sntiase doa an awk bhgie...n sy maaafkan awk.."...MNA..sy x ksah awk da ade pgnti sy..sy arap awk bhgia...tp npe awk wat sy ni cm kayu..x de prasaan..skit awk..skit sgt...bbrpe ari lpas..aq tbukak blog mimy...lg sentap mak nak..!! he really love dat girl..dye x jge aq dlu cm ne dye jge mimy skunk...bgos lah..!! dye da pndai hrgai org yg dye syg...but today...mimy chat ngn aq kat fb...mimy mintak aq bc blog dye...aq try2 cri new post dye..aq jmpe..than aq bc..she really did love MNA...tp dye da wat MNA benci dye...aq just nsht mimy...pjuk MNA blek...he did love mimy too..i know dat...tp mimy x nk...aq pon dgn brat ati wat dcision cll MNA & trang an sumenye kat dye...tp bile aq cll dye da tdo..aq nk xplain pon x sempat...tp aq sempat sbot sal pe yg mimy wat tu..& i think he can guess it..walaupun jauh kat sdut hati aq nih aq sdeyh sgt2 ngn pe yg jd skunk nih....aq just harap dorg akan b'baek blek.. hope they both hepy together....

*MNA....even na syg sgt kat awk...na sgop bia awk ngn owg laen slagi awk akn bhgia..na akn cube lupe an awk spy na x kcau kbhgiaann awk ngn org yg awk syg...

* MIMY....i just arap u dpt bhgia an dye...he choose u..so, u r the one make him hepy...please take a very well + good care of him....

sampai mentup mata...

embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau asa
detik demi detik ku hitung
inikah saat ku pergi


oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

aku tak mudah untuk mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta


senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata
cintaku sampai ku menutup mata


oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

* love dis song...the words...hmm...MNA...ILYSFDM....even ur not mine anymore....thnx for make me happy...

1001 rase...

hmm....arini pnat gile seyh...bz..!! went to PDK for group asgment...best sgt..!!interesting xperience...hehe...dpt rapat lg ngan bdk2 keprluan khas...bdk2 ke..??mostly bdk laa....tp ade gak adult kat situ..yg pling tua 40+....aq respek gile kat ckgu2 kat situ...sgt penyabar...dorg kne thn ngn pe'el student2 kperluan khas ni yg mcm2...kt situ ade mcm2 kes...SD,CP etc...pnat + mls nk taip byk2...hehee... then blek kolej..arini x de klas..!!hehe..yes2..membute time...!!haha....lme gile aq tdo....kol 2 till 4...da lme x tdo ptg laa kate kan..haha...kol 5 camtu aq ade group asgment discussion...nyanyi2 lorh..best2..!! rase x sabau lak..haha...bile da amek preschool nih...ilang rase malu..menyanyi + menari + belakon & sewaktu dengannya da jd rutin bg kitorg bkal2 ckgu nih..hehee... pas da practice nyanyi ckit2 tu ade lak perjumpaan course kitorg...pns woo korg soh kitorg dok kat dtran tu..seb bek laa kojap jo..then aq pon nek laa umh...tgk fon..coz aq ni mmg x rjin bwk fon sgt if nk g wat asgment nih...tgk2..ade 2 miscll at my celcom num...cll laa blek..perempuan..!!heh..spe...??

aku : spe ni..??

joyah ( bukan nama sbnr ) : ni nana ek.??

aku : yup...spe nih..??

joyah : knal fiq x..??

aku : knal...ni spe..??

joyah : ape hub ngn fiq..??gf dye ke..??

aku : eh..npe..??aah...( gagap2 ckit )..hee

joyah : awek dye..??

aku : aah....

joyah : owh yeke..k laa..thnx...

* aq x sempat ckp g dye da ltak....hmm...

sah..!! fiq tipu aq...siotnye jntan..ayat nk mnis...mcm2 ko kan...haish....aq pon then texting lah ngn  * joyah tu...text2...dye admit yg dye gf fiq...aq x sdeyh..tp aq skit ati..dye tipu aq...npe x sdeyh..??sbb mayb aq lom syg dye g...aq text fiq ckp jgn crik aq lg....aq da xnk daa kne tipu g... dye text..tp aq x reply.....dye cll then aq off fon...benci gile aq ngn ko..!! tau x..!! klu laa menbunuh tu halal..haish..x tau nk kate..skunk gak aq g bnoh ko..!! hahaa...mrepek jaaa..hee...hmmm...sbar laa nana..dugaan...aq on fon...text wan..ngadu kat faiz...both of them my best fren...dowg phm aq...bile aq sdeyh x de tmpat ngadu..dowg laa aq caik..thnx babe..!!syg korg...hehe...tp bile da on tu...msok laa msj2 dr fiq...msscll bgai2..nta laaa..aq x ade ati lgsg nk bls or respon..aq bia je fon tu....da lme ckit tu bwu aq tgk lek...ade 1 msj dr org yg aq pling syg..syg sgt2..till now..even dye da mayb epy now...MNA..i miss u..he text me..dye mintak mf..sbb da kcwe an aq..x pelaa...aq da mf an da...aq da ckp kite kwn smpai bile2..then dye admit yg dye menyesal sgt2 wat aq cmtu...aq just nshat an dye jge je laa hub dye skunk....baek kan aq..???hahaaa...nta laa...mls laa nk b'musuh2 ngn owg.. x dpt pe pon.....so,today....will be the day that i will nver 4get..!!hee.. <3

* fiq...smpai cni jelaa k...aq da xley daa ngan ko...sorry..

* MNA...i miss u...rily miss u...ko tetap kat ati aq... <3

* wan & faiz...thnx...jd teman aq...koyak mulot aq asyik gelak sbb ko faiz..hee... * hagimaru *

kenduri puputan..

haha..terkeluar jawanye..!!hhaha...kenduri puputan..??knduri ckur jambul baby lah..!!mmg lah baby an..pe jadah lak laa owg tua nk kne ckur jambul g an..heh...knduri nih utk anak sedara aq...her name is NUR AMANI QISTINA.....heheh...she's so cute..heheh...mcm cik nana dye lah..!!haha..*perasan sungguh aunty dye nih...huhuu...kenduri tu b'langsung pd  4 Feb 2011...heh...bz sesgt...tp best..!! <3 ... coz nie laa time kitorg sume2 the whole family jmpe...lebih kurang cam family gathering laa nih...best..!! everyone was there..!!ade laa gak 2 3 org yg x de...tp atas urusan tertentu...hope next time if de pape sume akan ade ye..!!hehe...

ok..ni mase atok amani ngah nak gunting ckit rmbot amani..( ape laa atok bc tu )

haha...one happy family at home..!! <3 ...heheh...

from left : aku ( nana ), kak ngah , obie, kak wani , aqif , pak teh & mama...

me & my sis wit ibu...love yaww....

amani's cousin....dowg nih sibling...tp cm x ade rupe sgt an...btw both cute..!! lil zahra & hannah...

* actually byk g pic nk diupload...tp agak malas + penat...hehe...ni je yg mmpu...haha.....

tp pape pon kenduri2 or xtvt cmnih mmg bgos utk merapatkan silaturrahim antara 1 sama lain...like2..hee

i never told u ...

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there’s no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can’t believe that I still want you
And after all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I’m not around you
It’s like I’m alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can’t believe that I still want you
And after all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can’t believe that I still want you
And after all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about you
Without you